My Story

My story begins having grown up throughout the lands of Ireland, Spain and the United States. Growing up in utter chaos, I spent my life feeling alone, scared and like I didn’t belong anywhere. As a young adult, I tried to hide this as much as I possibly could and learned how to mask the majority of my emotions. I tailored myself to conform to society but emotionally, I was barely getting by. I used my left brain gifts to gain a bachelors degree in Science and zoology in Ireland. During those years I battled with anxiety disorders such as social anxiety, obsessive compulsive disorder, and years and years of childhood trauma that I had suppressed. I believed I was the enemy, that my body was against me, and deep down, I hated myself.

Then one day, it all changed. At 25 years old I had a profound Spiritual Awakening. A couple months later my Kundalini arose on September 27th 2015 and I was left in what some would call a physical, emotional and spiritual crisis. Every pocket of undigested pain within my body was unleashed. Along with an array of ever changing physical symptoms that left me bed bound for months. For the first time in my life, I was re-connecting with who I was. I began the process of unraveling my entire history of trauma & CPTSD, ancestral lineages, and de-conditioning all that had masked my true self. I have been in this daily process for the past 8 years.

Throughout this process,I discovered that healing wasn’t pretty and I wished someone had the knowledge, understanding, and love to guide me through the darkness. I wished someone could hold space for what I was going through. I decided to become that person. I began opening my door for healing sessions and created a Youtube channel named Soulful Toz to document my process. On my online platform, I went to the deepest depths of vulnerability, a kind I hadn’t witnessed before and was proud of, but that came at a cost. Through allowing myself to be seen and giving myself permission for full free expression, I found my voice. Six years after being on Youtube, my soul began to initiate me into the power of privacy and bringing more sacredness around my internal process. I discovered I had parts that needed to shed the spiritual ego of my online platform and I made the decision to step away from Youtube. I have been following my fierce truth ever since.

When I began my career in coaching I quickly realized that by working with my clients emotional and somatic worlds, adjusting to life post awakening became easier. Awakening or not, I realized that everyones inner system is begging for witnessing & healing. I felt less pulled to do online coaching and began deepening my studies of how to help heal from somatic burdens. This has been one of the sole focuses of my work. To lead our inner system & parts with compassion as well as releasing the emotions the body carries.